I wonder if you felt it

Late night a few weeks back, lying half asleep in my hotel room, I saw you on active. Too tired to hold onto the phone, but wanted you to see me on active, too. So I put the phone down next to me, closed my eyes, and started scrolling back and forth… just a little bit, starting out slow and gentle… moving my finger just the tiniest bit to register that scroll… as I drifted into a sort of half-dream, knowing somehow you were there next to me, I gradually added the tiniest bit of side to side motion, just enough, just how I think you'd like… just how I imagine you'd touch your own phone, thinking of me… slowly… gently… then a little faster, feeling your body react to the touch, watching your face for the signs I'm doing things right… adjusting speed and pressure, keeping the phone awake, keeping your heart beating faster and faster… bringing you so close, then backing off… just once, maybe twice… I'm not a monster! Until your final release, your face in the most beautiful agony, your breath reaching a fevered pitch… Then lifted my finger off the phone… I know you're sensitive after that… and pulled the phone close to my chest before finally drifting the rest of the way off to sleep. And dreamed it again… And wondered if you felt it…